I’m having a hard time right now dealing with stuff . . . the two year anniversary of Prince Charming’s death was harder to face than the one year anniversary. I’m struggling with the fact that he’s not here . . . I lived so many years without him that I already know how dull, boring, empty, bleak my new life can be.
I have a new job that I love, I am blessed that the bills are paid each month and I have a little left over each month for “extras,” the dogs are healthy, I’m healthy, I have a wonderful support system that helps me through the rough spots . . . I’m feeling a little guilty about being happy about things . . .
But something is missing and that something is Prince Charming . . . and I’m struggling with that fact . . .
It could also be the winter blahs have set in . . . I’m tired of cold dreary weather and I’m ready for spring . . .
And then I found this . . .
You can disappear in the overwhelming grief, be resentful of the path you must walk, or you can choose to see all that is good.
I don’t remember where I found it or when . . . I found it when I was working on my budget for next month . . . but it’s exactly what I needed to hear when I needed to hear it . . .
I just hope I can remember it the path gets a little rough . . .