The two year anniversary of Prince Charming’s death is just days away. It’s dreary here in Smalltown, Ohio, this week . . . a reflection of my heart and my mind these days.
I try not to go there . . . but my mind is back at the beginning again. Why? Why him? Why now? After being apart for over thirty years, we were back together and we were happy . . . happier than we ever dreamed of being. Things were looking up for him with his job . . . he was working on a promotion. After many years of estrangement from his children, he had finally patched things up with them and they were getting to know each other all over again. He was so happy to be a grandpa to two little boys . . . and excited for a third little boy to arrive in a few months. He was finally able to say he had a happy life. And then in the blink of an eye he was gone.
I’ve struggled with “why” from Day One. It’s like I’m a dog chasing my tail. I can’t find any answers and I can’t stop trying to find them . . .
And then I saw the article about the young couple in Tennessee and the horrible car accident they were in on January 3. I normally don’t read articles like that because they make me mad . . . why were they spared and Prince Charming wasn’t. He had just as much to live for as they did. Yea, we’re back to the “why” thing again.
And then I read this sentence . . . “God doesn’t throw protection around like that for no reason. He does it because he’s not finished with us.” And I had what Prince Charming called a “BFO” or Brilliant Flash of Obvious and a sense of calm finally settled on my heart. I had jokingly said several times that Prince Charming’s Dad had a big project in Heaven and needed Prince Charming’s help but I didn’t really believe it. It was just a way to cope with the loss. But there was something in that sentence that made it all clear to me. Prince Charming’s work on Earth was done and God had bigger projects for him. Just like the couple in the article didn’t suffer any serious injuries in the accident, Prince Charming didn’t suffer during his accident. God protected Prince Charming the same way he protected the young couple. Sure the outcome in Prince Charming’s case was different but I can’t deny that God had a hand in it.
I still have some rough days ahead of me as the second anniversary approaches and as I continue on this sad journey without my beloved Prince Charming but somehow things seem a little better.