The hot flashes are back. Don’t know why they are back, but they are. They are just as awful as they were right after the surgery 4 years ago. At least I don’t have night sweats like I used to . . . but still. They wake me up in the middle of the night. The blankets get flung off. Then after a while, I get cold and they come back on. I get thirsty and need a drink of water. Then I have to go to the bathroom. Happens quite a few times almost every night. Between that and Millie needing to go out when I get up to go to the bathroom (“You go, I go Mom!”), I have been awake quite a bit lately.
So in the very early morning hours this morning, I’m laying awake and trying not to make any noise so I don’t wake up Millie. I’m staring at the ceiling or staring at Prince Charming sleeping next to me. He snores just a little bit. What a very comforting sound. The windows are open so I can hear the birds chirping in the trees. Millie and Rocky are on the doggie bed at the foot of the bed and somebody is snoring a lot louder than Prince Charming!
I’m thinking about all kinds of things. How nice it is to be able to hear the birds in the trees. How lucky I am to have Prince Charming sleeping right next to me. How can one dog snore so loud! How happy I am these days. How different my life is from a year ago . . . from six months ago. How the hardest thing I’ve ever done (the divorce) could lead to the best thing I’ve ever done (Prince Charming). I’m living my wildest dream . . . somebody pinch me because this can’t possibly be real!
And then I hear Millie shaking her head and she walks over to my side of the bed and starts breathing on me. How does she know that I’m awake? Guess I better get up and get started on the day.
Thank you, God, for today.