A Very Bad Day

I’ve spent more time on the phone today that I care to think about talking to the specialist and the local vet.  They have test results but nothing is jumping up and shouting "THIS IS THE PROBLEM".  We can do more tests and we can try different treatments but the bottom line is that they have no idea what it wrong with Luci.  They have no idea if there are serious irreversable complications from whatever it is that they can’t diagnose.  They can’t explain why a 4 year old dog that was perfectly fine two weeks ago is suddenly not eating, not drinking, and not getting any better no matter what they try.
She’s my baby and she’s in pain.  I don’t like that.  They don’t have any answers.  I don’t like that either.  They want to use her as a guinea pig while they test different theories and treatment options.  Well, that just ain’t happening. 
I can’t ask her to continue to fight if there is no hope that she will get better.
We made a very difficult decision to end her suffering.  
Luci passed away today at 5:45 p.m.
It’s been a very very bad day. 


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4 responses to “A Very Bad Day

  1. Beth

    Dear Pam,reading this I am heartbroken for you all. This was a terrible decision you had to make and I know how much you are hurting. Luci will not suffer any more and we all have to be thankful for that.A big hug and much love and prayers for you all.Beth

  2. Dori

    Pam, I cannot tell you how badly I feel for you and hubby. But I can tell you that you made the right decision. It is so darn hard to put down a dog who was fine two weeks ago – I know because that is exactly what happened to Luke in February. Your words to me made my suffering easier then and I hope to ease yours a little. But it takes a long, long time to heal and I don\’t know if you ever do heal completely Hugs to both of you and special prayers on this Easter weekend.

  3. Dori

    A Kipling Poem, By Rudyard Kipling (For Pam)I wish someone had given Jesus a dogAs loyal and loving as mineTo sleep by His manger and gaze in His eyesAnd adore Him for being divine.As our Lord grew to manhood His faithful dogWould have followed Him all through the dayWhile He preached to the crowds and made the sick wellAnd knelt in the garden to pray.It is sad to remember that Christ went awayTo face death alone and apartWith no tender dog following close behindTo comfort its Master\’s heart.And when Jesus rose on that Easter mornHow happy He would have beenAs His dog kissed His hands and barked its delightFor The One who died for all men.Well, the Lord has a dog now. I just sent Him mineThe sweet Luci so dear to meAnd I smile through my tears on this first day aloneKnowing they\’re in eternity. Day after day, the whole day throughWhenever my road inclinedFouor feet said, "I am coming with you!"And trotted along behind.

  4. Dori

    Pam, I think about you a lot and always say a little prayer that your loss will be softened somehow. If you can, please blog and let us know how you are doing. I can feel your hurt all the way to AZ 😦

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